Monday, April 26, 2010

An internal peace.

Sometimes when big things happen I am so excited that I don't really act excited at all. This happened once in high school when I won Winter Royalty Queen. They called my name and inside I was so happy, but on the outside I looked pretty calm and collected. I knew that I had made my parents proud and I was just so happy, relieved, and peaceful.



So, when I look at the picture below...I just can't believe that I am here. At this place. And it's a good place. For those of you who have read my introduction, you may remember that in 7th grade, my first year in junior, I made the dance team and I had to have my skirt made for me. They didn't make a skirt in a size 14, so we had to buy 2 and have them sewn together. I will never forget how that felt.



Well. I still have that skirt and top. My mom actually gave me the skirt this weekend. I held it up and said "That is so tiny".



And then I put it on.



And I am so happy. This is the smallest, and oldest, piece of clothing history I have. It is 17 years old. And what is even MORE amazing...I will soon be smaller than I was at 13.

That makes my heart and soul feel...peaceful.

No matter what the scale said today :)

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  1. That's awesome!! Congratulations! I can't imagine the peaceful excitement you feel. Absolutely FANTASTIC!!

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  2. brrrrr-owwww.
    Gimme an A for Awesome!

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  3. Congratulations! I also saw you in that cute swimsuit--you looked great. Thanks for telling me that you got it at Target 'cause I went out there last night and ordered a few to try out. Keep up the great work! It's been fun to watch your progress.

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  4. yeah! Tell the scale to shove it!

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  5. Amy you look Amazing!....(I bet tracy just loves this look...haha)

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  6. You are truly an inspiration Amy! I am so happy for you. It must feel wonderful to fit into the skirt. Congratulations!

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  7. LOL...When I saw the little pic in the reader box my first thought was "Aww, look at our Amy the cheerleader back in junior/HS...she had the same exact pose of today" Than, I opened up your post to read and saw it was our Amy, today! wearing her cheerleader skirt from back than! How cool is that? What a great feeling that must have been.

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  8. I just need to say this. You rock! I love reading your blog, watching your vlogs. You make me laugh and inspire me to work hard.

    Thank you

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  9. You look great. I'm making a prediction that Tracey is going to be getting busy with a cheerleader tonight. GO TEAM!

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  10. That is one of those moments when you can say wow, this is why I got my band and every struggle and issue that I have ever had to face and work through was for this! What an inspiration

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  11. You look awesome!! It's funny, but I still have my prom dresses from 11th and 12th grade that are size 10 and I am bound and determined to at least be able to get them over my hips, I just don't thing they would ever zip up!!

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  12. This past weekend I put on my homecoming dress from my freshman year of high school... it was a size 16 that we searched all over to find... It was too big... I have never been so happy

    It's an awesome feeling to realize that you're smaller than you were as a chunky child/teenager

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  13. That's very significant Ms. Amy. Way to go!
    You look like you're ready for the pep rally.

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  14. Awwww. Wow! You're such an inspiration. I remember being in a size 16 in 7th grade. If you can do it, I know I can do it too. :)

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  15. I was about to say Tracey must think he's in heaven: his very own cheerleader! Apart from feeling at peace and excited you must be so proud. I know I am of you. It's an awesome NSV to have. Go you!

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  16. Now that's a great NSV to me!! :0)

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  17. That is so amazing!! I'm so happy for you!

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  18. That is awesome!!! I have similar dance team memories from high school -- only have my sweater though. Guess I'll have to haul that out sooner or later!

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  19. that is fan-friggin-tastic!!

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  20. omg. that is so freaking awesome. i don't know what else to say cuz i'm... well.... just wowed. really i am. so awesome!!!!

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  21. That is truly amazing. You look so young in that outfit. Cute!

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  22. I can't wait for that to happen to me - and I know it will! My mom still has my dance team outfit from 8th grade :)

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  23. Sorry, I'm instantly thinking of some kinky dancing that will be going on with Tracey later. ;)

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  24. That is awesome! You look so cute and yeah..I'm sure Tracey is having a vivid fantasy now! LOL

    I used to have a skirt from cheerleading when I was a sophmore. I think I tossed it though, sure I'd never fit into it again. Now after this pic, I'm going to have to see if I still have it!

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  25. You look too cute Miss Cheerleader! You really light up my day. Rock On!

    Allison

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  26. Shut UP!!! That is NOT something from Jr. High!! You're still full of crap - RIGHT? Holy Mother of Cheese...IT IS! (I had to read it again)
    CONGRATULATIONS you skinny little turd! Now I wish I stil had my pom pon uniform from HS. We could run around Chicago in them. Man....if I ever fit in that I'd never take it off.
    Are you wearing it to work tomorrow? Who needs pants when you have a dance team uniform?
    I am SO happy for you! WOW!

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  27. How fabulous is that? Congratulations. :D

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  28. Give me an A! Give me an M! Give me a Y! Go AMY! Sorry for the cheesey cheer but the outfit made me do it. Yay you!

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  29. You truly are my Hero Amy.

    I can only hope to be just like you 1 day.

    Congratulations, theres nothing like peace. =)

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  30. congratulations for you! My husband and I are moving, so this weenend we packed. I now have all my clothes sorted by size, some even still have the tags on them. I have the clothes I wore the night I met my husband on a hanger waiting for the day I can put them on!

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  31. OMG Amy!! I am teary eyed for you!! This is just too fantastic and it is only going to get better!! Great NSV and so happy that your mom thought to save the outfit for you!!!

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  32. I can't imagine how amazing you must have felt today! How awesome is that!! Congratulations on probably your biggest victory so far!!! You've come such a long way. I hope to be as successful as you some day :)

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  33. What an amazing moment for you! And yay for Mom for keeping things like that!!! Just wonderful - please, PLEASE keep that outfit for as long as you can. What a great thing to help remind you of "why" you chose to take control. Congrats Amy!

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  34. That is truly amazing! Man, I wish I had my old Pom Pon dress. You deserve to feel peaceful my dear!

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  35. Look at you rockin that skirt!! I knew it would fit and look amazing on you...you are amazing!

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  36. You look so awesome! There is nothing like a calming peace. Again the inspiration you provide is priceless!

    Simply...Thank you.

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  37. Wow!! That must feel wonderful!! You look awsome and congradulations on this huge milestone!!

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  38. Hi Amy. I'm Ellen and new to blogger. I have to say, I love your enthusiasm and confidence. Congratulations on your weight loss and thank you for sharing your journey! I'm currently waiting for a surgery to be banded, hopefully at the end of May. Reading these blogs makes the process less scary. Again, thank you!

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  39. I'm with Jenny - I wish I had my cheerleader outfit from HS. We never got to keep ours! You're a hot tomale. Do you have the bloomers on? I bet not...you little hussy. I expect you to put this back on when I hit goal and do a cheer for me in a vlog. Mmmkkkayy?

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  40. WOW! WOW! WOW! You look amazing!!! You should feel so proud of yourself! And kudos to your mom for keeping it all this time.

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  41. Aw!!! I'm so jealous and proud all at the same time!! Jealous that I can't pull my old uniform out (they wouldn't let us take them) and in about 60/70 lbs put it on and cheer/dance with you!!! Of course, I will have to lay off the toe touches this time!!! :)
    Way to go - you look amazing!!!

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  42. wow Amy - I'm so happy for you - what an accomplishment. :)

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  43. WOWZA. Scales are overrated. You fit into that outfit and that's all that matters!!! Now, tell us...did you fulfill some HS fantasy Tracey ever had involving cheerleaders?!?? bwahahahaha ;)

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  44. I saw this on FB and wanted to Cry with excitement for you!!! Im so happy for you! Skinny Minny!

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  45. You are rockin that outfit! I bet Tracey loves it!!! hehehe You go girl!

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  46. That is so cool. Soooo proud of you. COngrats and yeah give that scale some hell.. Take care..

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  47. That's awesome. That's a contagious type of peace, one where you know that your decision somehow makes sense even though you are so far away from your goal while your friend is right there, peaceful and heart happy. That's so awesome!

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  48. give me an A! give me a M! give me a Y! Go Amy Go!

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  49. Damn that's a whole heck-a-lot-a-posts! Anyhoot... I think I check your blog 3x's as much as I monitor my own. Thanks for the honesty Miss Amy!

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  50. Great job Amy. That's gotta feel great. You're doing it.

    You really are.

    Congrats.

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  51. Saw this on facebook. Totally rocking! and I agree with the other commenters. I'm sure Tracy is loving it too!

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  52. How great is that!!
    and...you are too tan to be a winter queen...how about summer queen??

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  53. You're a cutey patootey...and tiny too.
    I'm so happy for you and hope you follow this dream as far as you want it to take you.

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  54. Wow- talk about coming full circle. That is amazing. I am so glad your mom hung on to that outfit- who knew that one day you'd be wearing it 17 yrs later and poised to be even smaller than you were at 13. That is so cool.

    (Am trying not to tear up here at work, but it's hard!)

    Go Amy!!!

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  55. That's good stuff, but I am not putting on my junior high school wrestling uniform for anything!

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  56. Wow...that is amazing...it looks tiny to me...so the others must of been sticks. Congrats

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