Tuesday, December 18, 2012

A New Day A New Diet

Listen kids, I keep it real with you don't I?  Well, pretty real.  I mean, I do have SOME boundaries (albeit very loose). So I don't want to come at you with "I am not on a diet, I am changing the way I eat for a lifetime" nonsense...bc let's be honest...when you aren't eating what you want because what you want to eat makes your ass fat and your stomach topple out and over the top of your pants...well then friends...you are on a diet.  NOW, maybe at one point, your diet does bc your habit and wah-lah, you have changed your lifestyle.  But I ain't there, and I don't know if I will ever be there.  So, let's look at what the definition of diet is, when one googles DIET.



1.The kinds of food that a person, animal, or community habitually eats. (one could say that I habitually make poor diet choices)

2.A legislative assembly in certain countries. (one could say I have no idea what this is referring to)


Restrict oneself to small amounts or special kinds of food in order to lose weight: "it is difficult to diet in a house full of cupcakes".


nutrition - nourishment - food - regimen - dietary

So there we go.  We are all on the same page now.  Well anyways, it would be safe to say that I have been firmly routed outside of the healthy eating stratosphere now for...gosh...a year?  I would say that with the exception of a few bouts of a one or two day stretch, I haven't really been trying to watch what I have been eating at all.  While I am not making positive food choices, I am constantly aware of how bad the choices I am making...are.  But just like the years of eating that got me to 333pounds, I can usually justify or squash those voices by eating more food.  Dangerous slope.  So I woke up and weighed in Monday. 


I thought it might be a little inflated due to being on my period...but whatever.  I then went and got out my weight loss journal that I have had since 2000.  I used to record my weight EVERY Monday during my losing phase after post-op.  As you can see, I haven't recorded my weight since September.

So I wrote it down and I also took my measurements.

And so we begin again. 

Such is life.

Some of the behaviors I know I am going to have to remedy are:

Eating fast food.  When I was actively losing, especially during the first year...I barely EVER ate fast food.  If I ate anything, it was Wendy's chili or Chik-fil-a nuggets.  Because of my loose restriction right now, it is pretty easy to eat fast food, where once upon a time post-band...eating a hamburger with bun while driving meant certain barfing either in my car or on the side of the road.  I didn't try it.  I didn't push the limits.  So...I need a fill soon to help my otherwise worthless brain by taking the fast food card off the table.

I need to stop drinking regular soda.  Blah.  I SO love regular soda.  This is a tough one for me.

And that goes along with the fact that I need to resume drinking water on a regular basis. 

ALSO, I remember...vaguely...when I would count my naughty items.  Like, oh I had ONE muffin today.  Or I ate three little tiny miniature tiny peanut butter cups.  Now, it's like I count containers.  I ate ONE BAG of peanut butter cups.  I need to try and regain awareness of the magnitude of my poor choices.

I need to set a weight loss goal and be held accountable.  I am signing up for the biggest loser at work on Jan. 3rd.    Heather runs the competition, it's a $10 buy-in, lasts for three months.  I did this about a year and a half ago and came in second.  It was the last time I weighed in the 160's. 

I want to weigh 165 by May 18th...which is the day we run the Tough Mudder competition.  Taking 20+ pounds off my frame with certainly help my endurance and help with the obstacles where my big ass is hanging from things...

Heather said "It's about time you got back in check"...she's right.  She also said "Don't you think it's a bad week to start this diet?" Meaning with the family and holidays upon us...but I said it's better to start, even if I start slowly, than put it off.

It really boils down to eating healthy is NO FUN.  It's HARD WORK.  Shoveling food in my mouth mindlessly is FUN (while it's happening).  And it's EASY!  I don't wanna have to eat good (picture me stomping my food, lower lip out, brow furrowed).  But I think about my little sugarplum Heather...she is hard work and totally worth it.  And I also know I have done it before and CAN do it again.

Again. Again. Again.

So here's to all of us doing it again!  Or for those of you doing it the first time.  Happy Tuesday.  xoxo


  1. Good for you. You are going to be even ridiculously hotter at 165 covered in mud! :) Heather is going to be bursting with pride! :)

  2. I heard that! I'm on a diet as of Monday too! :) You will kick ass and take names... and I think Catherine is right!

  3. y do we work so hard just to gain it back again
    i did the same thing and it sucks
    but u will get back down to 165
    one day at a time :-)

  4. Oh girl... you have NO IDEA how close to home your post hits tonight... I have been greatly enjoying the 18 months post-baby and using every excuse in the book. Thank God I am only (still) at 215-ish, but that is a solid 18 plus higher than I was right before getting pregnant. I think I'm past the baby eating reasons! Time to buckle down... I have a fill scheduled on 12/28 and can.not.wait! I will be with you in spirit, and hopefully, will also lose 20 pounds by that date! Good luck - I KNOW you can do it!!!

  5. I have soooo missed your blog! Glad you are getting at it again and setting a goal! Your gonna do great you always do!!

  6. Thank you for posting, I am sorry to hear of the weight gain,it soooooo sucks! but thank you for sharing, I too am in the same boat, officialy starting on the first of the year, I have a game plan put together that includes clearing out the house of any goodies, a butt load of low carb crockpot receipes, work out plan and getting rid of my AM mcdonalds sweet tea, hello MIO here I come, I love your attitude!!!!!!!

  7. Reality SUCKS! I'm right with you!

  8. Great post! And, little lady, you stopped with 10 pound gain. It could have been worse. The key is for us to stop and get back on track. Can't wait to see that smile in May! Good luck, I will be rooting for you!!!!

  9. Ian in the same boat...even though I said I was NOT.GOING.TO GAIN. OVER THE HOLIDAYS! Buckled down this week and am diligently measuring food. Yuck!!!! I just want to eat fudge & Christmas cookies!