Monday, August 8, 2011

More Amy Excuses: Part 2

What is that quote about if you don't know where you are going, you might get lost and end up in the backwoods, with a flat tire, and have to walk to a scary house where people want to turn you into a wax figure?

YOU know the one I am talking about. 

Karin.  Help me out.

One of my problems over the course of the last 6 months or so is my lack of commitment to you and to me. 

One of the things I always recommend to newbies is to set a goal and share it with the world.  When I started my journey I knew that I wanted 120 pounds the first year and I had mini-goals of 30 pounds every three months (I am a math wizard).  I told anyone who would listen out there in blogland, in real life, and all the imaginary voices in my head.  I didn't to let you guys down, and I didnt want to get off track.  I was focused.  And when I gained 3, 4, or 5 pounds during a week, I buckled down and lost it the next...and then some.

If I told you I was drinking 100 ounces of water...I drank it.
If I said I was giving up soda...I gave it up.
If I said I was doing a 5k...I did it.

Lately, on the rare occasion that I have said I am going to make changes...have you noticed I preface it with "I am going to try"?

And perhaps...therein lies the problem. 

What's that quote?  Do or do not...there is no try.  Didn't yoda say that?  Or Oprah? 

By NOT wanting to say I WILL do something (bc Lord, I might not really want to try that hard and thus fail) I am already failing.

And it stems from FEAR.  Yeah.  I said it.  I am afraid to set a goal bc I do not know if I have the motivation to reach it.  I am afraid to list specific changes that I know need to happen because I can justify it in my head.

Here is a great example:  Let us say I am drinking a can of Coke.  People, who drink crazy amounts of beer, will say to me "I can't believe you are drinking regular soda!"  And to them, and my justification in my head is "Oh really?  I can't have 140 calories of pure sugar but you can drink over 1000 calories in beer in several hours".

So I justify my regular soda with a 'well it could be beer' mentality.

Coo Coo

Or how about this one: "Yes I had oreos for breakfast.  But they were only 240 calories, same as my protein bars...so what's the difference"?

Our minds are cumbersome catacombs that are scary to navigate.

Onwards and upwards my fair friends.  Until tomorrow...

when I might finally get balls enough to set some goals (large lady nuts don't count).

11 comments:

  1. You are on a fantastic roll today, Fabulous Miss Amy. I have made those same calorie justifications over and over.

    At the beginning, I ate like a Bandster and I lost weight like a Bandster. Now I eat more like my old self on a diet and having the same success (or lack thereof) that I did back then.

    Here's to finding your balls!

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  2. I admire your honesty and success ... I'm going to go back and read your beginning blog story .... in advance - thanks for sharing your entire (truthful) journey :)

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  3. I feel like need to do with you. Set some goals like the old days and not just well I used to weigh 279 pounds now I weigh 175 so it's all good.
    Here's to goals!

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  4. Great post as always...can't think of the quote... sorry :( Thanks for the shout out tho.

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  5. I like your idea of stating you'll do something. I'm thinking of trying the same thing! I'd like to register for 5K races to get back into running and have a legitimate goal to train for, but instead, I keep saying, "I'd like to..."

    Thanks for the motivational speech!

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  6. You are like a slightly talled, less green, less hairy, Yoda... and I am Luke Skywalker soaking up the knowledge. XOXO

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  7. You always put into words the exact things I feel but can't find the words to describe.
    AMAZING.

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  8. Glad to see these posts. It makes me feel like I'm not the only one standing a lone while the rest have moved forward. And I don't mean it in terms of "misery loves company", more so I understand. You all were my inspiration though, like you said... set goals, but like you I have the phobia of commitment, main reason I haven't actually set weight loss goals. Just goals of drinking 64+ oz and staying under calorie intake to lose at least a pound a week. I guess the little ones count all the same. So ya...... back to you, make the goals. Get back on track, you see where your blogs are going.

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  9. I love your lady niblets. It's creepy how often I think of them.

    No, not really.

    Or really?

    ;)

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  10. I am going to start out with some goals and go public with them! :) You are such an inspiration!

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