What is that quote about if you don't know where you are going, you might get lost and end up in the backwoods, with a flat tire, and have to walk to a scary house where people want to turn you into a wax figure?
YOU know the one I am talking about.
Karin. Help me out.
One of my problems over the course of the last 6 months or so is my lack of commitment to you and to me.
One of the things I always recommend to newbies is to set a goal and share it with the world. When I started my journey I knew that I wanted 120 pounds the first year and I had mini-goals of 30 pounds every three months (I am a math wizard). I told anyone who would listen out there in blogland, in real life, and all the imaginary voices in my head. I didn't to let you guys down, and I didnt want to get off track. I was focused. And when I gained 3, 4, or 5 pounds during a week, I buckled down and lost it the next...and then some.
If I told you I was drinking 100 ounces of water...I drank it.
If I said I was giving up soda...I gave it up.
If I said I was doing a 5k...I did it.
Lately, on the rare occasion that I have said I am going to make changes...have you noticed I preface it with "I am going to try"?
And perhaps...therein lies the problem.
What's that quote? Do or do not...there is no try. Didn't yoda say that? Or Oprah?
By NOT wanting to say I WILL do something (bc Lord, I might not really want to try that hard and thus fail) I am already failing.
And it stems from FEAR. Yeah. I said it. I am afraid to set a goal bc I do not know if I have the motivation to reach it. I am afraid to list specific changes that I know need to happen because I can justify it in my head.
Here is a great example: Let us say I am drinking a can of Coke. People, who drink crazy amounts of beer, will say to me "I can't believe you are drinking regular soda!" And to them, and my justification in my head is "Oh really? I can't have 140 calories of pure sugar but you can drink over 1000 calories in beer in several hours".
So I justify my regular soda with a 'well it could be beer' mentality.
Or how about this one: "Yes I had oreos for breakfast. But they were only 240 calories, same as my protein bars...so what's the difference"?
Our minds are cumbersome catacombs that are scary to navigate.
Onwards and upwards my fair friends. Until tomorrow...
when I might finally get balls enough to set some goals (large lady nuts don't count).