Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Cry Baby

I hate when I want so badly to blog about something, but that something involves the lives of others...and I want to respect privacy...but this something is totally breaking my heart and has wove itself into my daily functions that I am just going to put it out here, with the least amount of personal disclosure for the person involved.

My lapband doctor is not doing well. He is battling a pretty serious health issue. And I am afraid for him. And I scared, and worried, and heartbroken. He is a young, kind, funny, successful doctor, really at the beginning of what I could only imagine to be a tremendous career filled with so many opportunities to change lives...

And yet he is faced with this huge obstacle.

I dream about him. And I know YOU know that I have dreamt about him before (can you blame me?), but these dreams are on the up and up. I wake up sad. And today, while I was working out, I started to cry.

Whenever I do sit up ons the ball, I always put one hand over my port. It sticks out and I like to hold it. I pretend it's the easy button. Anyways, feeling my port made me think of him. So I moved onto lunges, and then the tears started. I kept my head down long enough to pull my shit together....but still.

It's just another reminder that life is so unpredictable and you never know when...It makes me mad.

And so I scheduled a fill for January. It's not like I cant walk over to his office and pop in, but I want some time with him to give him a hug and tell him honestly...if there is anything I can do...let me know. I also need a fill, because even though I can still get stuck at random times, I am pretty much operating on very little restriction.

So there you have it.

I may delete this post after a few days because I am not sure this is my business to share...but I wanted to let you guys know.

22 comments:

  1. I am so sorry to hear this. prayers for him and his family.....

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  2. I hope everything works out for him.

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  3. I am sorry to hear this, both for him and his health as well as for you and your health and well-being. I know this Dr. means a lot to you and, well, dangit, why?

    My prayers are with him and his family as well as with you. Hang in there, Amy.

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  4. I'm so sorry, I hope things get better for him.

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  5. I'm sorry. :( I know how much you love your doctor. (I'm one of your silent stalkers, at least for the last few days... have been reading from the beginning.) I hope everything works out for Dr. Friedman - will be sending out good vibes for him and his family.

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  6. This is sad news. I am sorry that he is ill and I hope that he can get the treatment he needs and recover. My thoughts are going out to him.

    I know that he means a lot to you and I am sure that you are pretty special to him, as well. I am sure that he would really appreciate your support and a good hug. Rather than waiting for your appointment, just get on over there and see if you can see him for a moment, to give them to him. I'll bet he could really use them, right now.

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  7. That's awful... I will put he and his family in my prayers and send some good vibes his way. *M*

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  8. It's always the good guys who get hit first. Hope you get a great visit in with him. And I love the easy button. Mine doesn't stick out very much so I'll have to wait a few months to use it. Wish I could wipe your tears away.

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  9. You know Amy, I have been thinking about him everyday. I will see him on January 3rd. I am very afraid of what he will tell me this time. I am praying for him. Talk to you soon, sweetie.

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  10. I'm so sorry. I hope things turn around for him very, very soon!

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  11. I'm sending you hugs, Amy, and sending your doc lots of good healing vibes. I truly hope everything is ok!

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  12. Life is very short...we never know how much time we have. This past fall a surgeon in my practice where I had the lapband was killed in a motocycyle accident, he was only 31 years old. Everyone was devastated.

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  13. Amy, I too have an appt on Jan 13, and hoped that after the surgery he was improving. My prayers are with him.

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  14. No one knows more than me and my family how much life can turn on a dime! My heart goes out to your doc and his family Amy. You are a beautiful person for putting this out here. We all know that you have always had a special place in your heart for your doc and this has got to be breaking your heart. Hugs to you Amy.

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  15. Wow, my prayers are with him and you. How horrible.

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  16. Wow...breaks my heart and I dont even know him!
    Life is so freakin unpredictable! LIVE IT TO THE FULLEST!

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  17. Oh how sad! Life is so unpredictable and unfair at times. He will be in my thoughts.

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  18. I am sorry to hear about your doctor.

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  19. I know you are sad...I dont know what is going on with him but I feel your pain from this post. Its special to see your heart going out for him like this. He will be in my thoughts and prayers. It always helps me to rest in the fact that God is in control...of everything :)

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  20. I am sending prayers up for your doctor. I hope all gets better. What Nella said ^^^

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  21. I think your surgeon would be touched at how highly you think of him and that you are upset about his health issue. You've mentioned him frequently and know that he must be a special man to have made such an impact on you. I'll keep him in my thoughts.

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