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Saturday, April 25, 2009

My Reverse Body Dysmorphic Disorder Rears it Head

I have shared before how in my mind...I am pretty hot. People who suffer from Body Dysmporphic Disorder are usually thin and see themselves as fat (among other things). I am fat and usually see myself as thin :). Or not as fat as a truly am.

For example, today I was standing on the beach looking out at the water. I felt like a super model. To others on the beach...I probably looked fat. But I didnt feel it. THEN I came home and downloaded the pictures and I couldnt find my skinny self in any of them! I think it's because the camera adds 10-100 pounds.

Whatever. I told you guys I would have pictures so here they come. When we first got to the beach there was hardly anyone there! Here is tiny Tracey on the big ol' beach.
I was rocking my new cowgirl hat from Target, and my new swimsuit from Sears.
One thing I always do...and my friends have always made fun of me for...is point my toes when I am in my swimsuit. I dont know if its from years of dance, or that I love the arch of my feet...but seriously...whether I was teaching swim lessons and standing on the side of the pool, or weather I my feet are underwater...one of my feet is in a "point" position. Hey...you gotta make your legs longer anyway you can! So, all of that explains the next picture. But when I feel like I don't look as good in these pictures as I do in my head, I pull out the ol' trusty before shot that I took the night before surgery.





And I feel a little better!




13 comments:

  1. Amy, you are beautiful! I think if we met we would get along famously! I feel the same way about myself as you do. I think the last picture is hella cute for the record!!! And the toe point thing is absolutely adorable. :)

    BTW - was it you that wanted responses after you respond on someone else's blog? When I reply to your blog I get a little box that comes up that allows me to receive notices via email from that thread (I do believe).. I'm going to try it right now. :)

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  2. AHA - I clicked "subscribe" and it says "Follow-up comments will be sent to "my email""

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  3. You look great! I love the brown/turquoise suit...looks great w/ your tan. I have the same body 'condition' ...seriously, I'm hot in my head!!! :-) have fun!

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  4. Well ladies! I am glad that I am not the only one who suffers from this disorder! I think TLC should do a show on us! I would totally watch! :)

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  5. Amy - congrats!!!! You do look so much better than the befores! And good for you for having such a strong sense of confidence! You're inspiring! I bought a new swimsuit yesterday. Here in VA, it will be a while before the pools open, altho supposed to be 94 today! Yuck.

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  6. You are a ROCK STAR in my book! Thanks again for blogging and brightening my day!

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  7. You look AWESOME love! I'm glad about the whole B-12 situation for you! Hope you keep doing GREAT!!! love ya

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  8. I think you look great too!!! And such a nice tan, I'm jealous!! I love the way a nice tan looks on someone.

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  9. WOW!!! You look amazing, I only wish that I could be there to see you in person. You are an inspiration!!!

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  10. Amy...I haven't been keeping up with your blog for a while and I was SHOCKED and AMAZED to see your pics!! Girl, you look effing H.O.T!! I am so proud of you!! Your three month anniversary is tomorrow...did you think in a million years that you would be so far on the journey already?? Keep it going! (kristilaw from LBT)

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  11. Hey, you look great. 52 pounds is nothing to balk or scoff at. Don't get discouraged. How many of your friends have lost 52 lbs. You are right. You probably win that contest right? uh huh! Celebrate. Next week or the week after you could drop a jackpot. Congratulations!

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  12. Hey Amy,

    I have been following your blog since you started and tried to post once on my work complter and got blocked. But had to post to tell you your look awesome. I was banded 1/26.

    Tracey

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  13. Hey Tracey! Thanks for letting me know that you are following my blog! How has your first three months been?

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