With my brain.
Here is the gist of it. While I feel compelled to share my Atkins experience with you, I also feel scared to share it. You see, I feel like a "cheater". (Does this sound familiar? Like when we struggled with "cheating" by getting WLS). But now I am on the complete opposite end of the spectrum. I feel like I am cheating by being on a "diet".
But to be honest with you. So far it has been an interesting experiment. And instead of looking at it like a diet, or a cheat, I think I will look at is as "trying something new". I mean, we all try to switch our game up along our journey.
So, let's discuss.
I have been on Atkins now for 10 days. I am down 9 pounds. When I first started, I thought it was probably all bulllllll-shiiiit (this is how Heather's kin say it). I thought that instead of losing weight, I might actually gain. I didnt really believe that sugar, or carbs...made much of a difference in cravings or an overwhelming urge to unhinge my jaw and run up and down the candy aisle shoveling all chocolate products in my mouth like I was on Supermarket Sweep.
Well...now I am starting to think a little differently.
It took me about 4-5 days to quit bitching, moaning, and daydreaming about sweets. And it wasn't until Tuesday, when I was reading some blogs and everyone was talking about cravings and feeling like a failure that I realized....
Holy mother of semi-sweet chocolate chips...I am not craving anything. Perhaps its because I can put tremendous amounts of fat into my body anytime I please...as long as its carb free. I dunno. And although I find myself bringing up oreos and ice cream in conversations with other humans and my imaginary friends...I don't actually want it so bad that it's hurting my brain.
And I am not even tempted to cheat the plan. This may boil down to the fact that I am so afraid if I DO even ingest a no-no, I will immediately undo my hardwork, causing me to gain and thus let down my partner and lose the competition. But it's weird. I kinda like it.
And let me tell you the big selling point that I do like about Atkins. That regardless of whether studies say it's good for you or bad for you, everything I have read does not dispute the fact that a low-carb diet changes the way your body accesses it's fat stores.
So will I be a lifetime convert? Probably not. But I think even after the final weigh in next Thursday, I will make an effort to avoid high sugar and high carb stuff more often than not. I want my body to be as efficient as possible. But only time will tell.
Happy Thursday lovies!