I should start with the bad news. I didn't go to Zumba yesterday. Mary may "unfriend me" in real life, not to mention Facebook. I HAD planned on going...I promise...but then I was needed else where so I bailed.
No 2-a-days for me.
I wanted to talk about my band for a little while....
WHAT?!?!? Yes...I actually have a band. I know that it would be hard to gather that from recent posts, but I forget that there are those of you out there still in the beginning of this process who might like to know what it's like post band, 18 months later.
- My last fill was 7 months ago. I probably have close to 6ccs in a 11 cc band.
- I have lost 149 pounds.
- I am tighter in the morning still, and looser in the evening (huh...that sounded naughty...and true).
- With my current level of restriction, I can eat pasta again and sometimes a roll if I attempt at night. I was actually able to eat one pancake for dinner last week. When I am at super restriction, pancakes would be a no-go.
- I am rarely physically hungry. The only time I really feel real hunger is in the morning.
- I drink the occasional adult beverage.
- I drink diet Sunkist.
- I don't drink as much water as I used to, or as I should.
- I don't take my vitamins regularly, but have taken them the last three days! I need a gold star!
- I work out 3-5 times a week now. More weights than cardio. It took me probably over a year after surgery to really feel like I wanted to, or needed to work out. It has made a world of difference. Start with something. Set a goal. If I can do it, I promise so can you.
- I am in a size 12. I started at a size 26/28.
- My loose skin is present, but no where near as bad as I would have thought. Don't let loose skin scare you from this surgery. I would rather be "skinny" (meaning loose skin), than unhealthy.
- My goal weight is 170. I decided that myself and still think I will be happy with that.
- My average day of eating varies. I try to keep my calories around 1300, but I dont track them officially. I still eat "fun" stuff, but when I cook or go out, I try to make healthy choices.
One of the things that I have noticed changing is my obsession with my number. My weight. OH, I still weigh a couple times a week...I still want to see 170....but I can honestly say that unless I am having a "fat moment", I am happy with my body, my fitness level, and who I am right now. Instead of fretting and worrying about hurrying up the scale, I now know that I am making the right choices food wise and exercise wise...so I am confident my body will get to where it wants to go. It's a subtle shift at first, but I think it's one of the first indicators that I really am getting to where I need to be. Gone is my fear that I will fail....that this won't work for me. Gone is the feeling that this is another "diet". This is my life now. And that is a good feeling.
What else? What other newbie questions am I missing?
- I feel my port more every week. When I am lifting weights above my head, I can actually see Tina poking out of my shirt. She is such a show off.
- My port never hurts me.
- I never, ever, regret having surgery.
- I still think I am the fat girl. I forget that I am average now. I wonder if that will ever change.
- I havent seen my doctor in forever and I miss him. Having a good relationship with your doc and their staff is so important.
If there are any other questions, feel free to remind me.
Until next time, Eskimo kisses to you my friends.